Saturday, September 29, 2007
seeing as next week is the last week of sch [officially, not counting remedials], i am gonna be the first to post what i feel about the last two years. haha okay maybe not the first since i think teerapong alr posted sth. nvm i can be the second :)
well. actually its all summed up in this really absolutely perfectly appropriate paragraph from Christina Aguilera's Fighter. here it is.
so i wanna say thank you
coz it makes me that much stronger
makes me work a little bit harder
it makes me that much wiser
so thanks for making me a fighter
made me learn a little bit faster
made my skin a little bit thicker
makes me that much smarter
so thanks for making me a fighter.
and of course, lets not forget all the people who helped me survive these two years.
thanks to
caroline for all her company these two years and all the funny things that we do. i dunno what i'd have done without you dear! cheers to friendship in the long run :)
thanks to
anghong for always turning up at the right time and for being a member of the gac :) you owe me nine donuts!!
thanks to
sihua, jenny, and the rest of the gang guys for all the company these two years of school and lectures and tutorials
thanks to
eunice for sticking it through with me these two years esp when things were really tough at first. its always nice to see you in the morning dear :)
thanks to
jovena and joanne for always being there for me
thanks to
mitzi for being my study companion most saturdays
thanks to the rest of the
cj people for an unforgettable three months
thanks to the
attachees for still staying in touch and for helping me get one more achievement and the fun, laughter and noise and daidi
thanks to
suhui, baoxian, tricia and all the other sn pple in vj for keeping the sn humour alive! haha. and dreams of orange bowl and all the good food back at sn :)
thanks to
lauren for all the sundays in church and the company
thanks to
xueting for making me laugh with her funny tags and stuff and for being a good friend :)
well. thats quite alot of pple. im sorry if i missed anyone out.
thanks guys for keeping me sane these crazy two years :)
time to work hard and get those 5 As!!! keep going!!
walk by faith, not by sight
even if we cant see the 5As right now, have faith that they'll come to us :)
a star fell from the sky;
10:49 AM
Thursday, September 27, 2007
today is a super gg day. first i woke up early but reached e bus stop abit late. i thought i missed e 166 so i took another bus out to another bus stop where theres more buses. den e 166 came. good! gooo gooo goood! den it started pouring like mad. i reached e little india bus stop at 653. i sms iris at 706. iris told me the bus coming in six mins, and the nxt one in 12 mins. 726 i still waiting at the bus stop. stupid iris cheat my feelings! the st pats pple were like piling up at e bus stop la. so janica and i took 131 [the seventh 131 that came!!] to raffles hotel there and take 36. we boarded 36 at 727 [yes, we reached e bus stop in one min, surprisingly] and we reached school at 806. gg la. i seriously nv reach sch so late before. haha but it was still raining so nobody to book us. wait for the bus for 30 mins leh! seriously. i was so tempted to cross the road and take bus home. HAHA.
everytime it rains right, its not a good time to go school. e other time it rained, eunice and i met e crazy person. and today there was a crazy person on e 36 too! he was like wearing headphones and he kept singing along la. and hes singing, is seriously worse than mine. its totally flat la. gosh. but at least he only assaulted us with his voice, not like someone who threw water at us!
the rest of the day was okay. we were like hysterical towards the end, after maths. for the first time every today, mrs chuah didnt go thru anything. she was like telling us how we shld be studying alr la. and how abt we are second in maths in our level? good job, s48!! haha we only got beaten by s64! and how abt nikhil is in the 99th percentile? gosh. nikhil. is. pro. haha. like really. pro.
okay thats all for today.
mug hard guys! rmbr what mrs chuah said today!! lets make it 100% A for 06s48 :)
a star fell from the sky;
6:16 PM
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
omg im watching pck now and its damn funny. haha gurmit singh and irene ang are like talking with this damn funny brit accent. HAHA. and pierre png and tan kheng hua are talking damn super singlishy la. haha.
omg xueting i really really really miss you alot alot alot alot!!! why are you still the same funny nice person?!? why cant you be like super selfish and not funny and horrible then i wont miss you at all!!! really must meet up soon soon soon! im gonna make my com read chinese real soon soon soon :)
thanks to joanne and jov dearest for the fun and laughter today. i love you guys too! now its chiong all the way! haha maybe i can come crash ny again soon :)
a star fell from the sky;
7:15 PM
Sunday, September 23, 2007
today i shall do what i haven done for a long time. and blog about what i've done these past few days. haha. since prelims have ended.
well.
friday i slept in. and went to watch my brothers performance. and did abit of shopping after that. just abit. haha. spent alot though. im gonna be broke soon la. no actually im already counting down to e days that i'll get my allowance. whats new man? lucky that day is coming soon man.
and for e first time ever ytd, e sun didnt hide from me when i went tanning! yeah man. so now i really have a nice tan and one more thing to add to my post a-level programme [PAP]. i really suck at swimming now la. gosh. its depressing. two laps of freestyle and my arms are dropping off. me who could keep up with my swim coach last time? i am so gonna find my freestyle arms again after As. haha. but its nice to go swimming after so long. wakes e competitive side of me. haha although my sisters didnt put up much competition. so i tried to compete with random pple in e pool. complete strangers that i'll just try to overtake or keep up with. e feeling of winning is nice, of course. but its more e spirit of things that i like. of pushing yourself, of keeping up, of overtaking. of having a goal. dont get so much of that nowadays. at least not physically. after all you cant physically see that you're behind academically right. HAHA.
and today i woke up to pouring rain. well it does make it nice and comfy to sleep. but i had to ask my dad to come back and give me a lift to church. i really hate going out when its raining la. but at least i was damn early. haha like for e first time ever. so lets see how e rest of e long weekend goes.
and did i say that my cheeksie pie is the most adorable person in the whole wide world?
:)
enjoy your weekends, everyone.
a star fell from the sky;
2:13 PM
Saturday, September 22, 2007
i hate it when you're upset. and you wont tell me anything. and you try to cope with it all by yourself. and you're freaking pissed but you wont tell me anything. and i want to help but i really dont know how. and i really want to cheer you up but i dont know what to say or do. and i cant say what i wanna say coz im afraid of losing you. and i dont wanna scare you even though i think you might already know.
and i really just want you to be happy.
and i swear i will do it, even if its just to make our sacrifice worthwhile.
a star fell from the sky;
1:27 PM
Friday, September 21, 2007
if only we can all have what we want
if only things can go our way all the time
if only theres no such thing as boredom
if only we are motivated all the time
if only we never feel down
if only we never lose faith
if only we believe in ourselves all the time
if only we believe in people all the time
if only letting go is easy
if only we didnt have to grow up
if only we didnt have responsibilities
if only we can be reckless
if only there are no games
if only we can be straightforward all the time
if only we can be frank with our feelings
if only we can trust without doubting
if only we can love without fearing
if only we can live without caring
a star fell from the sky;
6:25 PM
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
todays post is about happiness and life.
weird how having a terrible chem paper has this kinda effect on me. so heres three of mings thoughts for the day.
1. We all live with the objective of being happy; our lives are all different and yet the same.
-Anne Frank
doesnt that totally embody the 'same same, but different!' theory? actually no matter how diverse our lives look, we're all seeking one thing, and we're all gonna end up in the same place. life is a journey, and even though there are many routes, the destination is the same.
2. Happiness belongs to the self-sufficient
-Aristotle
now, that is true wisdom. haha i finally realized that actually we cant find happiness by looking around us. we can only find happiness within us. its not so much a state of things, its more a state of mind. we can be in a horrible situation and still find it within us to be happy and smile. we can be in a delightful situation but still grumble that happiness is still eluding us. looking for happiness around ourselves is futile, true happiness, i think, comes from being at peace with ourselves, with God, and with the rest of the world. and i think thats why happiness is such a quest. because we find it hard to be at peace with ourselves in the beginning. like kicking ourselves after e paper coz we left so much blank, coz we didnt write what we actually knew, etc. we are always blaming ourselves and other people so much so that its hard to find it within ourselves to be happy. we cant depend on people for our own happiness, nor on our successes or failures. although it feels damn shitty to fail, succeeding gives us joy for that short period of time only. how long can you be happy just coz u succeeded in getting 10 As for A levels? you can get only 1 A for A levels and still be the happiest person on earth. really, i think its all a state of mind. we think we'll be happy if we get this or that or if this or that happens but how often is it that when it actually happens, when we finally get what we wanted, that we realized we're actually in the same state as before? ie, our happiness has not increased or decreased because of the thing? maybe for that moment, you were happy. but i think thats more like joy and not happiness. i think real happiness wont be so fleeting.
i think just coz As is over, just coz we all get 10 As, its not gonna make us happy. sure, our hard work paid off and thats one more obstacle we crossed. but true happiness, is a state of mind. it comes with recognition of some things and some habits that we have to learn. we are still gonna be in this same state of mind if we dont do anything about it nxt yr. except for maybe alot less chemistry and all occupying our brain space. haha.
3. Life is not about waiting for the storm to pass. Its about learning to dance in the rain.
this is my fav quote of all time man. haha. coz it reminds me that we shldnt keep postponing the time that we're gonna live, that we're gonna be happy. everyones waiting for As to be over so they can do stuff. but just coz As is coming doesnt mean we shld put life on hold and mug away right. this is our life. for now la. but there'll never come the time when we dont have sth else to do, another obstacle to cross. so we shld stop looking ahead and start being happy NOW. life is about obstacles, one after another, anyway. after As theres still uni, then work, etc. its never gonna end. you think it'll end when we retire? haha i think we're never gonna retire. by the time we get old the retirement age wld prob have hit like 80 or more and we'll be working to our deathbeds. haha. i think learning to keep being happy while struggling, is the key to life.
Love doesnt make the world go round,
love is what makes the journey worthwhile.
and really, i dont think its the cure to everything.
so.
a star fell from the sky;
12:04 PM
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
hey ah and caroline!! i found another guardian angel song! haha read this man. i think its super sweet too. act i think all such songs will be sweet can. just like e gac ;) cheers.
Your Guardian Angel
-Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm stronger I've figured out
How this world turns cold and breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
Cuz you're my, you're my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away,
Please tell me you'll stay
Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
a star fell from the sky;
5:27 PM
Monday, September 17, 2007
caroline, i read this and its so appropriate for you!! listen to it man, please :) i really dont think you'll regret it!!
we've got to hold on to what we've got
coz it doesnt make a difference if we make it or not
we've got each other and thats a lot
for love, we'll give it a shot
we've got to hold on, ready or not
you live for the fight when its all that you've got
a star fell from the sky;
5:54 PM
Sunday, September 16, 2007
P(ming will get ps-ed)=0.9
P(ming will not get ps-ed)=0.1
P(ming will get to go out once in ten times)=10C1x0.9^9x0.1
=0.387420489
and the weird thing that defies all logical, reasonable, and even economic sense is,
P(ming will do it all over again|ming has a chance)=1
what can i say? its strange.
i think i did too much maths last week.
oh well. enjoy e rest of your weekend everyone! and mug hard! three more papers and we're done! for now la. and i think this is really beautiful. read it. and appreciate!
i know theres something in the the wake of your smile
i get a notion from the look in your eyes
you've built a love but that love falls apart
your little piece of heaven turns to dark
sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile
the precious moments are all lost in the tide
they're swept away and nothing is what it seems
the feeling of belonging to your dreams
and there are voices that want to be heard
so much to mention but you can't find the words
the scent of magic, the beauty thats been
when love was wilder than the wind.
a star fell from the sky;
12:54 PM
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
One day I decided to quit. I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality.
I wanted to quit my life.
I went to the woods to have one last talk with God.
"God", I said. "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?"
His answer surprised me.
" Look around", He said. " Do you see the fern and the bamboo ? "
" Yes ", I replied.
" When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them.
I gave them light. I gave them water.
The fern quickly grew from the earth.
Its brilliant green covered the floor.
Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo.
In the second year the fern grew more vibrant and plentiful.
And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo.
In year three, there was still nothing from the bamboo seed.
But I would not quit. The same in year four.
Then in the fifth year, a tiny sprout emerged from the earth.
Compared to the fern, it was seemingly small and insignificant.
But just six months later, the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall.
It had spent the five years growing roots.
Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive.
I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle. "
" Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling,
you have actually been growing roots?
I would not quit on the bamboo. I will never quit on you. "
" Don't compare yourself to others." He said.
" The bamboo had a different purpose than the fern.
Yet they both make the forest beautiful. "
" Your time will come ", God said to me. " You will rise high. "
" How high should I rise ? " I asked.
" How high will the bamboo rise ? " He asked in return.
" As high as it can ? " I questioned.
" Yes." He said, " Give me glory by rising as high as you can. "
I left the forest, realizing that God will never give up on me.
And He will never give up on you too.
Never regret a day in your life.
Good days give you happiness; bad days give you experiences;
both are essential to life.
Author Unknown
a star fell from the sky;
8:19 PM
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
you are all i need to get me through
like a falling star i fell for you
you have taught me how to love
an angel sent from high above
and now i know that all i need is you
:)
a star fell from the sky;
8:17 PM
Monday, September 10, 2007
where did the weeks slip away to?
i thought two weeks was long enough to mug away for prelims.
well, apparently not.
i thought i was efficient enough.
well, apparently not.
how come i have so much more to study and math and econs paper is tmr?
i have absolutely no idea.
how am i gonna take my papers tmr?
i have absolutely no idea.
why am i blogging now?
coz i dont wanna study anymore, duh.
am i gonna be damn screwed if i contd like this?
well, what do you think?
what can i do about this?
i can start mugging away again, and really show how to not give up till e last second.
do i really want to?
THATS NOT THE POINT!!
do u wanna live a life of no regrets, our dearest ming?
er. i would like to.
then get down to it, girl! just do what you have to do. and stop being such a loser, please.
get down to it!!
i love my cheeksie pie :) hes just adorable!
come on everybody. stop reading. start mugging!!
a star fell from the sky;
8:05 PM
Friday, September 07, 2007
its friday and im starting to feel the stress.
with the kind of revision that ive been doing, i can only hope for the best.
and i was starting to get damn stressed last night. haha but clovis called me again and reminded me im not e only one having a shitty time. i think hes having an even shittier time than me although its not coz of studying. even though he used up all my phone batt, thanks :)
and a big thanks and i love you and hug to joanne and jovena, my studying companions this week :) thanks for nearly getting us drunk ytd jov. we nearly got to watch joanne doing bartop dancing!! nvm, nxt time. haha and thanks for the company late at night, joanne! it helps knowing im not the only one awake :) i love both of you!! and ny is like nearly my second home now :) mug hard okayy!!
come on lets give it our best shot now man. what else can we do? just our best and hope things will be okay :)
NEVER GIVE UP!! NOT EVEN AT THE LAST SECOND!!
a star fell from the sky;
10:49 AM
Wednesday, September 05, 2007
heres my horoscope for today:
this is the overview:
A surge of positive energy is pushing you forward in an unexpected -- but fascinating -- new direction. You may be able to achieve something you had only dreamed about and sooner than you think!
the extended version:
Try to align yourself with an intellectual person today -- while their smarts might intimidate you a little bit, their insight will inspire you to new levels of greatness. They can help you prevail in any challenging situation, and give you confidence in an area that has always mystified you. Of course, it could be a big challenge to find someone who is smarter than you, but if you keep an open mind about what it means to be smart, you'll find them soon.
and lastly, the teen forecast:
You're way more energetic than you have been in a while, and that could come out in all sorts of ways. Maybe you plow through reams of homework, or maybe you find a new drive in some sporting activity.
stop laughing at me! haha. i think its interesting to read our horoscopes everyday. i dont always rmbr to, and sometimes i only read it at night. but its still interesting to see if i really see anything inspirational in it. haha. well i didnt really feel very energetic today. but hey, the nights still young. lol. hopefully i can really go through lots and lots of work. that'd be good man, given how slack ive been. can someone comfort me and tell me im not e only slacker in the world? its really time to be doing work. haiz. soon, i promise.
i dreamt about you again last night. i keep dreaming about you recently. and its always about the same, but last nights one was really really realistic. much more real than the others. and it felt so real! like it was really happening. haiz. if only. but i was happy in the dream :) but it was kinda sad to wake up and realize that it was a dream. it really felt so real, like sth i just did ytd or sth. but i know that i stayed home and slacked like mad ytd, so its obviously a dream. maybe ive been thinking about it too much. but i swear, i have been trying not to think about it. its too distracting. and ive four more impt pple whom i really really really wanna establish relationships with.
namely, chem, phy, maths and econs. and gp.
i want really really strong relationships with them that can last the next three months or so.
i want really really trusting relationships with them so i dont have to always refer to them when in doubt.
i want really really fruitful relationships with them so they will love me back as much [or maybe even more!] than i love them.
and i've got the next 4 days to really build our relationship, so wish me luck please :)
and just for the record, this is the horoscope for all scorpios tmr:
Things are going so well today that you might just feel like you are living out one of your dreams! Things will come easy to you and it is a good day to get whatever it is that you've been hankering for -- both in the material world and in the emotional world. Therefore, there's no excuse to not try. You will succeed in auditions, exams, first dates, and all other situations that put you to the test -- so don't by shy or hesitant about going for the gold.
HAHA. have fun, all scorpios out there :) hopefully it'll be as good as it sounds :)
and guys,
check out this jim carrey video. its really hilarious.
throw it away
forget yesterday
we'll make the great escape
won't hear a word they say,
they dont know us anyway
watch it burn
let it die
coz we're finally free tonight
till nxt time, guys. mug hard!
a star fell from the sky;
8:21 PM
Tuesday, September 04, 2007
okay i am really bored studying. im gonna break tradition and do a lame quiz. haha u shld go see my sisters answers on her blog la. its damn funny.
List out your top 5 birthday presents you wish for:
1. 5As for A levels
2. everybody to be happy and get 5As too? maybe we can be e first cohort of 100% 5As!!! LOL.
3. me to find a nice, fun, interesting job after As, hopefully with some nice interesting, fun friends
4. a pet!!
5. hang out with you
Answer the following questions:
1. the person who tag you is?
caroline2. your relationship with her is?
classmates/heart-knower. [i invented a new term!]3.your 5 impressions of her:
how come she always knows what im thinking?!?!4. the most memorable thing she has done for you?
bet me 8 bottles of barcadi when e odds of me winning are like 100%5. the most memorable words she has said to you?
er. thats like quite alot.6. if she becomes your lover, you will?
heh. i think her answer will be more interesting ;)
7. if she becomes your lover, things she has to improve on will be?
her list of expectations for her partner
8. if she becomes your enemy, you will?
er. delete her no and put all her stuff into a box ontop of my cupboard? HAHA.
9. if she becomes your enemy, the reason will be?
i dont think she'll be my enemy. she knows too many secrets!
10. the most desired thing you want to do for her now is?
give her a hug. i havent seen her in more than 1 week!
11. your overall impression of her is?
good friend.
12. how do you think people around you will feel about you?
er. i have no idea.
13. the character you love of yourself is?
im nice :)
14. on the contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
im the best procrastinator on earth.
15. the most ideal person you want to be is?
we should learn to be content with what we have.
16. for people that care and like you, say something to them.
thanks guys. love ya too :)
17. pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you:
1. caroline
2. anghong
3. sihua
4. jenny
5. joanne
6. jov
7. eunice
8. qi
9. mei
10. you
who is no.6 having relationship with?
jov. er... her notes? LOL.
is no.9 a male or female?
mei. female.
if no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
omg no way!! anyway eunice alr has someone else ;)
how about no.8 and 5?
er. they dont even know each other la. and i cant imagine my sis being les. HAHA.
what is no.2 studying about?
knowing him, prob everything.
when was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
last mon?
what kind of music band does no.8 like?
about the same as me except she has abit weirder taste ;)
does no.1 has any siblings ?
yupp. 1 younger bro.
will you woo no.3?
sihua?!?!? no way. shes too fair for me!! haha.
how about no.7?
eunice?!?! cannot, i will kena whacked.
is no.4 single?
jenny? er, obviously NOT.
what’s the surname of no.5?
chan
what’s the name of no.10?
thats for me to know.
what’s the hobby of no.4?
going out with someone?
do no.5 and 9 get along well?
i wldnt know, they dont even know each other.
where is no.2 studying at?
vj
talk something casually about no.1?
hey dear. hows mugging?
have you tried developing feelings for no.8?
my sister?!? NO!!!
where does no.9 live at?
with me ;)
are no.5 and 1 best friends?
they've never met, actually.
does no.7 likes no.2?
anghong and eunice?! i have no idea, actually.
how do you get to know no.2?
school.
does no.1 have any pets?
i dont think so.
is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?
eunice?????!?! to me, no. but to someone else, prob very!
a star fell from the sky;
6:25 PM
Saturday, September 01, 2007
i should stop thinking and just do. although it goes against my principle of think more and do less. haha but its my principle in large part due to my laziness to do anything at all.
so, i shall try to think less and do more.
just do it. im sure i wont regret it. who can regret doing 43 calculus questions?
HAHA.
and i'll love you, no matter what
thats what guardian angels are for ;)
a star fell from the sky;
1:02 PM
come on everybody. stop reading. start mugging!!